I fly because I know that if I fall, I am surrounded by people who will catch me. So I jump as high as I can, and - - - —— fly.
The other thing Monday, October 16, 2006
The other thing is, if someone breaks up with you, then they don’t deserve you, since you deserve to be loved completely and always forever and ever and ever.
But amazing people break up with other amazing people all the time. What gives?
I think I have actually stopped caring, but I thought I’d write it here anyway in case someone else is interested.
Dance with spoken word Monday, October 16, 2006
Dance with spoken word is almost always trite. It’s nearly impossible to tell a story simultaneously through the abstract medium of movement and the concrete use of words. You have to either make the dancing concrete, which just looks dumb, or make the words abstract, which is possible for only the most skilled poet. I’ve only experienced it done well once, with Nina Sajeske’s piece “is a like a or a?” where the dancers were onstage in their undergarments and our stacatto and bizarre movement matched the seemingly-chaotic but always meaningful words she had produced.
My friend Daniel G. Monday, October 16, 2006
My friend Daniel G chose not to go to a school where he had received a full-ride scholarship. He will probably have to leave the school he is currently attending after this year, because the expense is too much for his family. But he still won’t go to the school in Virginia where he would actually receive a paycheck for attending. He has made this decision because he does not want to be away from his girlfriend for that long.
He has not told her that that is why he chose a school in Illinois. He wants to be with someone because she cares about him, not because he has made big sacrifices to be with her. It was his choice, and it’s really none of her business.
How amazing!
Katherine Dunham Monday, October 16, 2006
A black woman who received her B.A. from the University of Chicago in the 1930s, she traveled to Haiti and became a part of the Haitian culture to the point that she was appointed as a Vaudon priestess. She then returned to the US, bringing all of the new ideas and styles about dance and the new culture she had experienced, and combined them into something dignified, respected and applauded in the dance world. She did all of this while starring in a show on Broadway, lecturing at colleges about Caribbean cultures, and writing dance/anthropology articles for magazines like Esquire. When she became more well-known, she uses her fame to effect social change. She brings civil suits agains hotels that discriminate against black people, and doesn’t play in concert halls that are segregated. A lawsuit she brings up in Brazil forces the president of Brazil to enact a law stating there can be no discrimination in public places.
HOLY if i can be half as amazing as Katherine Dunham I will die happy.
Hookay, so… Monday, October 16, 2006
Looking at, for instance, a boy who just broke up with a girl (WHAT AN UNUSUAL EXAMPLE FOR ME TO CHOOSE) and saying: “Eeeuhh, thank GOD they broke up, what a bad couple. He/she didn’t deserve him/her.”
What’s the deal?
I just broke up with someone who was a wonderful person to date. He was sweet, considerate, kind, caring, passionate, devoted, honest, communicative, and supportive.
Sounds like quite a guy. And yet the fairly asshole thing he did right after we broke up has villified him in my memory and my dealings with him. I justify this by saying: “There are some people in this world who would never even come close to treating someone that way. The fact that he did makes him a worse person. Perhaps I didn’t know him as well as I thought I did if he is capable of such behaviour.”
This basically negates any positive thought or memory I had about him. But that’s so lame! He IS a good guy! We had good times together! (The party this summer at his Dad’s house! AMAZING!! I got stuck in the mirror, and we laughed for about 45 minutes straight!!! One of my favourite memories ever. Always makes me smile to think of it.) Can’t I reconcile my wonderful memories with the shitty way I feel now? People are all like: “Oh he doesn’t deserve you.” But dude - he is an AMAZING person, who is capable of AMAZING love. How can someone like that not deserve me?
I seem to see either all good things or all bad things, and only sometimes an accurate mix. I can see bad things in my friends and continue liking them - it’s just relationships where I have trouble admitting any faults at all until I see too many bad things to see good ones.
You can’t just put a positive spin on everything. It makes for a sunny world, but you can get pretty sunburned in a sunny world.
